Fameless Honor

The Golden Acorn

2010-01-26T03:51:00.001-08:00

I sit to pray....
I close my eyes....
He opens my heart and this is what I see....
I am standing in a field with no trees. The ground is covered, evenly spaced, with golden acorns. The golden acorns are every where, there are far to many to count. As I am standing there a young man walks into the field right in front of me, reaches down and picks up one golden acorn. The way He moved was almost like He knew the exact one He wanted to pick up. He walk towards me and right in front of me gets on His knees and lifts both of His hands together up towards me holding one golden acorn. Without any words spoken I knew I was suppose to eat the golden acorn. As I receive the golden acorn from Him and eat it I realize that all these golden acorns represent specific truths of the kingdom. I look again out into the field and again see no trees, Im not sure if I was told or just knew but I understood that these golden acorns are to become trees but only within the one who eats them and not outside them. I sense that each tree grown form these truths within a person will produce more golden acorns after the like golden acorn. Each acorn produced form the tree within represent truths within truths. After I hear or i am just given the wisdom of these golden acorns the young man speaks and tells me that the truth I was given to eat was the truth of "The Liberty of Love", and its is to grow and bare like golden acorns within me for others to eat and become trees.

This day

2010-01-26T03:50:00.001-08:00

In the morning time
In the early hours
I feel you awaken me
with a gentle kiss
and the rain is falling
a slow beating
upon the roof
of my arising heart

Its coffee time
I need to get going
...but...
"Come and wait with ME
I wanna tell you something.
I have given you time,
I can stop the sun,
what I'm going to tell you
Wont take long."

"My son its love
that has made this day
and its My love
that will put it away!
My love is this morning
My love is this day
My love is your rest
My love will never fade!!!"

A deep breathe
A sigh.....
and I realize
I'm alive,
not for work
not for play
but for HIS love
for this day

So no more
HO HUMM
and no more
HEAVE HO
only,..bump.bump
........bump.bump
the drumming thunder
of a loving Father

Devotion

2010-01-26T03:49:00.001-08:00

I lift up my eyes
from the pain that lies inside
I've set my gaze
only upon your face
Jesus

I'm washed by your blood
I'm free from my ruts
and I can lift my hands
and I can lay down this life
Jesus

Devotion
pure and intimate
Devotion
fast and furious
Devotion
life and death
Devotion for you

You have made me a dress
You have clothed me in splendor
I'm wrapped in you arms
I am lead by you wonder
Jesus

I'm made new by you beauty
I'm reborn in you fury
How beautiful is your devastating love
How majestic is Your glory
Jesus

Devotion
holy and free
Devotion
giving and receiving
Devotion
spinning and twirling
Devotion to You

You tune my strings true
You free my songs for You
I can dance in Your fire
I can slumber with my lover
Jesus

My life redeemed
My past restored
I've been filled with your glory
I'm dead to this world
Jesus

Devotion
painful and pleasant
Devotion
cup and cross
Devotion
chasing and pursuing
Devotion in you

I choose You
You already chose me too
I'm pursuing
and being pursued
Dancing
Dying
Living
Crying
Redeeming
Restoring
from glory to glory
oh how you pursue.....

I am completely devoted to You...

Gaze

2010-01-26T03:48:00.003-08:00

Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
and it's your face that I seek

I was caught unaware
by your love overwhelming
you awakened my love
for you alone, only you

You have broken my heart
by the breaking of yours
a bride set apart
for you alone, only you

Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
It's your face that I see

The wealth of the earth
bound by demonic hands
plundered for you
for you alone, only you

Your spending me
on your bride to be
till she's whole and complete
for you alone, only you

Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
Jesus you hold my gaze
Till it's only you that I see

Jesus I see your face
You are holding my gaze
I can not leave this place
Till you do...

No more, Know more

2010-01-26T03:48:00.001-08:00

No more guilt
No more shame
Not where you have
Written you name

No more guilt
No more shame
Not where you seal of love
Has been ordained

No more guilt
No more shame
Your blood was shed
You bore my pain

No more guilt
No more shame
All rough places
Have been laid plain

So now...

Know more guilt
Know more shame
Search the streets
Bare His name

Know more guilt
Know more shame
Touch the broken
Heal the lame

Know more guilt
Know more shame
Caught in sin
Freed from blame

Know more guilt
Know more shame
All their tears
He will wipe away

Messy muscle

2010-01-26T03:47:00.000-08:00

What ache must I carry
within this chest of flesh
concealed by the beating and pounding
of this muscle thats a mess

Let pain be a knife
surgically removing stone and fear
from a vessel of dust and breathe
so a fountain may flow from this well

I have chosen a choice
that was given for me to chose
if I had already chosen
then I wouldn't be able to chose

I confess that I commit
I repent from what I withheld
the discouragement that I felt
my commitment is my choice to chose

I chose
The Father, the Son, the Holy Ghost
Your Kingdom first
my life reversed

My messy flesh
my muscle stressed
my heart murmurs
for the love it knew

Now swing wide open
gate of my heart
receive the fountain flowing
be a well of love

Take Heart

2010-01-21T04:21:00.000-08:00

Take Heart to carry on. I have days set aside for us, to be used for your own personal renewing. When I call be obeidiant to the call and come, I AM good, be not afraid. I dwell near you but desire to dwell with you always. When you pray be concisious of your emotions, I speak through even them, there is much for you to understand in that part of your being. Move slowly while distractions increase, it is hard for you to interpret what is My will and what is your desires. True hearts are those that truly beat for My will and purposes, continue to commit and confess, it is building the foundation for your ministry. I AM near, and nearer still be near to me as I draw you. Faith without works is dead and so is Love. Treat Me to your pain and I will treat you to My peace, My joy, and My love. Move fully in faith whether you are sure or not, move assured that I AM bigger than your mistakes and I continue to make all things new.

Today

2010-01-18T04:36:00.000-08:00

Today is a new day, tomorrow has not yet come. Be about the business I give you today for tomorrow is not guaranteed. Take to heart My words to you, take to heart My promises for you, take to heart My unending love for you. Be restored by the renewing of your mind with the washing of My words for you. I AM not far but nearer to you than you know or realize, when you search for me you will find me for I hide right before your eyes. Truth is not a weapon but a relationship of my thoughts to your ideas grounded in our love. Be filled and be made ready for today you dance but tomorrow you mourn. Take courage that I AM. Leave those things that are behind you and press forward to what is ahead.

What to do?

2010-01-16T14:35:00.000-08:00

Well I have been thinking and praying of joining the army as full time active duty. I have tried once before to join but because of an injury i received at the end of my junior year of high school. I have just sent info to find out more info on joining. I guess i am just posting this so that it is out there some where about my intentions.
I am desiring so deeply to fight and protect and serve those who are in need, i feel i am just wasting my life when I have been given so much; be it time, singleness, ability, maybe just the desire within me to be more and do more. Above all that I feel and above all that desire i lay it down and confess that I would rather your will be done Father than my will, if this my cup let me drink deep of your will Jesus.

Hearing today

2010-01-14T04:45:00.000-08:00

I desire to see my people reverse their walk away from pain, instead move towards it. I AM a God who is holy and loving I desire to heal the broken hearted with hands that are flesh and feet that are willing. Make a place for me within your life as I make a place for you within heaven. Be not wounded by the wounding of others but strong in Spirit, mighty in faith, fully assured of My goodness of character. I AM not like you but I desire you to be like Me. Be willing for I AM able, more than able. Take to heart My words as bread to you stomach. Be refreshed and filled full by My words IAM always speaking if you have ears to hear.

Downtown

2008-01-24T07:15:00.000-08:00

This writing came from me spending many nights praying and hoping for Midland to be released from it bonds and be opened to the new mighty move of our Father. This one just kept coming to me like a prayer that i repeated more and more over the nights that i spent there downtown Midland, TX.

I'm downtown
It's dark, i can not see
The wind is blowing
but i don't know where its going

I'm downtown
It's dark, i can not see
the world is turning
But who is it we're really serving

When I'm downtown
these prayers never cease
for gates to be opened
and hearts to be softened

It's late now
I can almost tell
water flowing
the desert blooming

When I'm in town
the lights catch my eye
they can hypnotize me
mesmerize me

When I calm down
my smile becomes a frown
the masks that hide away
the death in this place

Oh ABBA
ABBA Father
open wide theses rusty gates

Starting again with "Stupid Hours"

2008-01-22T03:44:00.000-08:00

Well, to everyone who is reading this, sorry it has been forever for a new post. Let us pray i can be more like the spirit of Christ and be self disciplined.

So hear is a poem i wrote based upon a list Matt, Todd and myself had on our fringe while we lived together in Midland. The list had many items to do or try and one was to write a silly song, well this isn't really a song (first, because it has no music, second, because its not being sung) but i think its stands on its own well enough.

Stupid hours
Beautiful sunflowers
Silly Songs
Wind burnt and sunblown

Tea parties
Car wrecks
Pay checks
Sudafed

My prayer life
Your neck tie
An alien ship
Blown away tent

It makes so much since
sitting on the fence
after deciding
to be indecisive

Hogties
Coconut pies
Diet coke
with lots of fries

Coffee cup
Full of mud
Chocolate pie
For the flies

Two dollar water
Book in a bottle
Wool mittens
in hells kitchen

It makes so much since
sitting on the fence
after deciding
to be indecisive

You love me best....

2007-12-26T16:22:00.000-08:00

This one I wrote praying for and thinking about my close friend and bother Matt. Truthfully, as it was being written I really started thinking about Jesus and how it sound allot like what i wanted to say to Him as well. I'm not sure if it comes out clear but this one i had all intentions of putting music too, the only hold back was i can't write music, oh well.

What can be said
to a faithful friend
who never withheld
His tender hand ( when i was falling down)

What song can i sing
of what you mean to me
when words are so fleeting
but my heart must express

You love me best

What can be said
to a gentle man
who so gracefully shows me
whats so gradually killing me

What can be written
of a mighty man
willing to siege a tower
behind a wall the bride lies behind

you love me best

What can i sing
What can I say
What can I write
What can I do

To the one who saved me on a cross
to the one who intercedes with tears and blood
to the one who walks with the lonely
to the one who waits for my love

You love me best

Third to many.........

2007-12-26T15:57:00.000-08:00

Well, before i share some of the poems and songs that i have written i need to say just a few things:

-I am not in the habit of sharing any of these with very many people at all so i am finally taking a big step, and being a big boy now, sharing these. I truly hope that in some way they may be an encouragement to those who read them (its has always been my prayer anyways).
-Normally when i have written most of these there was a certain rhythm that i was writing with. So,Some may sound a bit off and may not follow proper reading rhythm.
-These have been written over many years so what i was going through then will be what comes out, it does not mean that is what i am going through or feeling now.
-With each oneI post (see Trev i used post instead of blog) I will try and leave a little reasoning why it was written, but don't expect to much.

With all that said, here's to my bleeding heart, bleeding all over your innocent minds.

This first one i am sharing is one i wrote thinking about my close friend and dear brother in the kingdom Todd. I was praying and searching for words to say that would speak to the purposes i shown and saw lying within in him.

In the willing one
In you my son
I've called my leader
out of the world

So
Stand tall
be bold
prepare
take hold

In your hand
a sword I've placed
In your sight
a wall to fall

Lead on
faithful follower
lead on
for Kingdom comes

Stand tall
be bold
prepare
take hold

The Kingdom comes
In my holy one
by my blood
the war was won

Humility and compassion
leadership in action
kindness and truth
a leader I've made you

Stand tall
be bold
prepare
take hold

My servant's heart
a serving heart
to love the low
become the least

My leader's humility
is glory to me
my son's humility
is glory to me

so
Stand tall
be bold
prepare
take hold

back to the feeling of home

2007-12-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

Right now i'm sitting and staring out one of the large windows that adorn my favorite coffee house. I have been back not even 24 hrs but have found and seen some of the most amazing people that i have known. I miss this ecclectic group of brothers and sisters, they are the greatest wealth in my life. As i sit here i can not help to think of the cities of refuge that were established in the time of moses. this place is over following with the Spirit of God. In my drive in i could not help myself but bless the Lord for His mighty hand upon these people and this place. I could only see this for myself by being drawn from this land and returning after some time away. I am thankful for all the love, pain, trials, growth, and time that i had here. To Midland and Odessa may our Father keep you always as a place to run to for the encouragement and edification of all who are in need, bless you always.
With this said, i am excited to see what the Holy Spirit is doing and accomplishing in San Antonio. I have meet and am growing in community with very committed and seeking individuals. I see so much potential in those He has brought me too, they really are exceptional. I am not sure what will come of all that is happening but i know my role has changed in the grand design. I am no longer who i once was. those that know me here in west tx know a william that will no longer be, and those i have met in SA are getting to know a william that i don't even know myself, but i am excited to find out. Through all this may the one who is worthy be blessed and may we all do as we see Him do and say what we hear Him say.

As always, for the King and for His kingdom

business time

2007-12-02T12:07:00.000-08:00

before Trevor and i set up my new blog we watched flight of the concords on youtube. we were cracking up in borders. so here's to a new way to share my thoughts (if the other ways were not scary enough).

If you are reading this then its to late for you now.......